P S Y C H O T I C A: where the realms of music and insanity overlap and interact to form a chaotic fractal with a dimensionality number of 1.8D. it is pleasing to the eye.

9/9/05

alright! forums are up!!

...now post stuff. ^^

9/9/05

wow, exactly one month since the last post. I must apologize.

alright, I've just started at college so I'm extremely disorganized with everything I've been doing lately. I've just gotten my computer up but no scanner, I'll have to be going room to room to be able to scan, copy files, change formats, import to my computer and Photoshop, and then transfer online... it has become a very arduous task. however, I would like to inform you that I have a new storyboard in the process, as well as some costume designs and the like. I haven't given up on this comic just yet, and hell, I've put too much work into this to let it "just die". please forgive my lateness, I'm still working.

...I am also currently obsessing over the art of inking. ^^ I'll have posted on my art page some of my newest manga attempts, yes, I know that part of the site isn't quite 100% yet... working on it~~! ^^;

I'll be back, my darlings. I promise. ^^

8/9/05

okay okay okay I finished it~!

...

yay? ^^;;; *dies from stuff*

7/13/05

ouch been awhile ne. o.o;;

well I'm shading the comic so stop hitting me so hard. sheesh. >.@ pineapples.

6/13/05

I'd update, but I'm out of space...

but believe me that I have been working on it. I'm halfway through with the sketch phase, which is alot this time, since there are 22 frames this next page. o.o;;

all of this, while being abit... how shall I say... distracted....... *winkwinknudgegrin*

5/24/05

mehhhhhhhhhh =.= *zombie mode*

I've started the storyboard for page 23 (not much progress on it, I admit, but it's finals week.) sorry about the slowness on it lately... I hope to get back to the normal 2-week schedule as soon as possible... and it shouldn't be toooo excrutiatingly hard to do once school is out, even though I'll be working >.@ blech don't remind me. I don't want summer to start. >.< well, in any case... I'll be happy getting out of this place finally. and that's certainly reason for celebration.

I know the comic has gotten kinda serious lately, but I promise that it will get funny again... comics like this don't tend to work when they're serious for a long time. o.o;; just wait until I introduce my new character in a few pages. *gringrin*

5/19/05

heyyyy there. *grin*

alright, well... as you can see, "art" section is gone and has been replaced by my new link to Shinart. this is the place I've moved the section (as well as the writing and about sections) to make room for future Psychotica comics. I haven't removed the other sections yet just because... well... I haven't copied them all over yet. o.o;;; everything will remain the same once moved. I'll eventually have a new color scheme/layout for this new page as well... so... yuh. that's all I guess. o.o

5/15/05

buahaha!!! o.O;; I'm nearly done with page 22. if all goes well, it should be up (at most) by Tuesday.

wait for it, my darlingssss! ^________________^

5/10/05

I know I haven't updated in awhile.

I'm not in a good frame of mind right now.

I've found that I can't... I can't... I'm not doing the things I want to, but I'm doing everything I can... I'm not... I don't do anything. I'm lazy and self-absorbed. what happened to doing work? but what happened to down time? and where is sleep? but where is work? so much I should be doing... so much I shouldn't be. what should I really be doing with my life? how did where I am now come to be? does it really mean anything?

*sigh* in any case... I've been working on page 22. I haven't updated the site with it yet but I've finished the lineart, now just to shade and then to letter and finally post. I know it's been over a month, and I tried to promise not to take so long, but it didn't work. I also badly need to update my sketchbook since I have many new pictures to add, but I just haven't yet. not only do I need to update new works, but the entire site needs an update and reformat. I wanted to do something special with the site but I tend not to be allowed on the computer for such "meaningless" projects. I'm going to need to place all my extra artwork onto a sister site so that my Psychotica site can be updated with minimal space used. whatever I do, I just want it to be halfway decent in the end, I just want this one thing to be successful for me... it means alot to me. it really does.

I'm pathetic lately.

4/26/05

uhm hey. o.o

yes, I haven't updated in awhile. yes, I've had lots to do lately. yes, I'm making excuses. get used to it. o.o; I'm very nearly out of space on this account so I'm deleting some things, and I'll be soon in the progress of making a new account here. I'll link everything up so everything will be the same except the URL. wait for me, I'm not done with this stuff yet.

4/15/05

...I really needed a place to rant at.

*sigh* 2 hours of sleep last night, 5 the night before, 2 before that. and yet, I still can't sleep. why the reason for the sleepless nights? research trifold and powerpoint due for 50 points, which I did in 1.5 nights, and one hour into school, which was then graded for half-credit because of the 1 hour tardy. I did more work than most of the pieces there and here is what I get for an hour late... I looked at the other trifolds and powerpoints and I must say that it is one of the best there. clean, concise, color-schemed... professional. *sigh* half credit at most. last night, it was a scholarship essay, which my English teacher evaded telling me straight out that she wouldn't sign the coversheet because she hadn't seen the essay to confirm it was my own work. since when do I copy anything??? I feel bad even just looking off pictures to draw from! I can't -stand- plagerism, much less use it in an essay for a scholarship! what an embarrassment, to think she would even consider that... and to top that, my mom called in before I confronted my teacher on the subject, telling her that she could do the coversheet herself; that all my teacher had to do was sign it... she hung up on my mother. and then my mom called other times, since my teacher never confirmed or rejected outright accepting the task... she hung up on her twice more. I just really don't understand this. is this not a proffessional setting? is this not on the subject of the student/daughter's future? is it so trifle a thing to ask for this in trust when we so greatly need this scholarship money? how blatantly obsurd that she'd insult us so! it infuriates me to no end! and yet, here I sit. mou. I have no strength in myself to confront her on my own. no, I just go along with it... meekly... and ask politely of other teachers, begging... it's due today, and here, I've got only half the essay completed, with no signature... and 2 hours of sleep. lost sleep for nothing, again. she left one less day for work on it, wasting our time by not telling us if she'd do it or now. all this when I could have been working on my animation work, with which I must have around 600 frames completed by wednesday next week. I have almost 200 right now, which in itself took months for me to do. do I even have a life anymore...? I don't hang out with people, I don't call people, I don't go out anywhere unless needed, I don't do my homework unless needed, I procrastinate, I'm horribly sarcastic, I'm mean to only my closest friends, I stab people in the back, and I refuse to do work for others. how sad is this? I have to do something about myself before I can go anywhere. but what I really want to do is just get out of school... it all is so pointless to me... I won't use most of my classes in life after school. ...if I make it that far. I guess we'll see.

4/6/05

woo! it's up. and some reformatting... now I don't have to update each page individually in the menu each and every time I add a page. @.< that was hell. o.o;;;;

4/6/05

page 21 is finished. it's been finished since 2 days ago. however, I cannot post it yet, but probably in the evening today I can maybe burn down the despisable thing that keeps me from my life fluids. @.< it's quite pathetic, but yes, my mother still locks up the computer when she thinks I've been on for too long or if she thinks I've been mean or oftentimes for no logical reason whatsoever. >.> eh. so yeah.

I'd also like to tell all my loyal fans (haha.) that I'm nearly done with the next storyboard (page 22) already. ^^ and also......... UP WITH HAIR BANDS!!!!! there is no music without the 80's hair bands. none. absolutely none. zip. zilch. not even Zilch. especially not Zilch. and no X, either. oh, scary thought! my! o.O;;;

4/4/05

heya!! ^^

I'm nearly done with page 21 now. I put alot of work into the background for this, which is in contrast to my usual scribble work. woo! o.o;; sorry it took so long. I've been working on an animation. don't EVER do animation. well, traditional-style anyway... it's hell. it is. takes wayyyy too long than needed. >.< and markers too. anyway, if you'd like to see it, go to my Deviantart page at http://shinta-san.deviantart.com and go into scraps. it's called "dormouse3" ^^ thank you.

3/12/05

yayy! number 20 is up! o.o;;

yes, it's been almost a month. o.O; hey, I've been busy. honestly. >.> anyway, it's less time than last time. so there. this page gave me some trouble, since the splash frame didn't come out how I'd have liked... I only realised after I started shading already that I should have shown the view more from the bottom to avoid the fish-eye look... I swear, it looked really dynamic in my head! ^^;; alright... yeah. well, I like how the majority of the frames came out, so I'll stop complaining. ...yuh.

3/8/05

I have not updated the "next page" thinger because I've not have access to my computer lately, since some annonymous person *cough* has been locking the cabinet in which it is contained. >.> however, I'd like to say that I'm half done with the sketch version of the page and the storyboard is (needless to say) finished to my liking. it really shouldn't take as long as last time to finish, since I'm not working on anything else in particular... besides my animation project... but that's another thing. besides, I tend to work on the comic in between classes and at midnight when I can't sleep, and I can't work on an animation at those times, can I? so there. I'm doing my work. don't look at me like that. I am. *stare stare*

2/16/05

*wipes away sweat* horray, for it's done! finally... >.>

yeah, so here's page 19... I've started the storyboard for page 20 now and I'm going to work with some new angles and more perspective because it's fun and looks cool. *grin* I also did a mini comic while trying to think of a layout for the next page... hmmm. what else? well, here's what. HAIR BANDS NEVER DIEEEEE!!!!! DOWN WITH NEW ROCK!!!!! BRING OUT THE 80'S HAIRRRRR!!!!!!! *stare*

2/6/05

yeah, I'm working on itttt. *stare* I'm nearly to shading stage, so it's about 75% done now. I'd scan it, but I'm lazy. you'll see it when it's done: page 19. I'm going to do something different with page 20, I think. since it's page 20 and stuff. eh. o.O;;

also, if you'll be so kind to notice... I've updated my "shinta-san's sketchbook" section with the cool parts of my storyboard for an animation I might be putting together over the summer... I dunno about it though. I don't think I have the drive to draw out thousands of frames from scratch all on my own... o.O;;;;;; but anyway, at least the storyboard is nice to look at. ^^

1/30/05

oh my, I've fallen quite behind, haven't I... >.< I'm sorry.

I promise that as soon as I finish with these new drawings I've done that I'll be back on schedule with the comic... I feel bad about this... I don't have very valid excuses for not working on it, just that I'm in love with my other works... but that's not a good excuse. o.o;;; that, and I've been partying all weekend of last and had no time in between Alien VS Predator and my uber nifty Seth et Holth showing *grinnn* which took place in my room with the bed disassembled and many people cracking loud jokes back and forth. o.o yuh. very... non-hard working of me. eh... I'll never make it in the worrrrrlllllddd!!!! *runs away screaming*

1/24/05

yeah yeah... I haven't worked much on page 19 at all... just three frames sketched. o.o;;; sadly, this is how it has to be for now... with all my portfolio junk and then with all my school junk, it's hard to find the time to get to it... yes yes, sorry excuses, please don't hurt me. ^^;;;;;

anyway, I will begin working on this once again tonight, since I likely won't have much homework and also that I'll work on my portfolio stuff at the same time and force myself to go nowhere near the computer, since it sucks up my time the fastest and most efficiently. it's sad. I know. too bad. o.<;;;

1/19/05

I've added another section... *grinnn*

please check it out, it was giving me some problems earlier and took awhile to fix so... go see how nifty... it's under the "Art" section, go to "Shinta-san's Sketchbook". ^^ see, I've been too lazy to redo my "Original" section, and it was making me crazy not to post my new cool junk anywhere, so that's where it goes... I am very, very proud of the junks in there. so go there. now. *stare*

1/14/05

the storyboard for page 19 has been started with about 3 frames drawn so far. this page will be later than the last, possibly even more than 14 days because of exams next week and my studying this weekend and all this other bullshit. a fake "life".

I needed a place to rant, and here's the unlucky place... I'll start with this, I. Hate. School. I've learned my lifeskills long ago. I know how to make money, how to treat people, how to get a job, how to sell myself. I don't need high level math, science, or even the complexities of the English language, which I already know for the most part anyway. I don't want school. I don't need school. all it is is a concentration of the wriggling maggots of society, those who scowl at differences and smile at the well-preened; manifestations of the greed and superficiality man has birthed from his mind... why are there social classes in school? why preen? are we mating among the many hundreds of maggots we have known from the start of our memories? why mate like this, before we sprout the fly's wings and take flight to a new carcass? there are surely more reasons to like another. to know life is to move on, meet people anew; you don't find your happiness by waiting for it, you take flight for it. you can't find someone to love by condemning yourself to the first carcass, to the breeding grounds of your birth. the bastards who defile the very characteristics that make us people... our differences, our inner child, our intake of feelings we don't understand but wrap our minds around to form a unique definition: these are the things ignored in the lower life. the maggots' life. and none will see for themselves what it is to fly, and what it is to remain a maggot. even the vile flies have pleasures.

what I really need is someone to slap me accross the face and tell me I'm wrong.

1/12/05

hey, I'm on time, according to my last post. yay. *grin*

page 18 is up... the story starts to finally kick off! another character introduced... wait and see what this is about. how many more characters will be introduced within the next 20 or so pages? o.O;; alot. wait and see, this'll get good eventually. and then... there will be people just begging me for autographs... someday... *daydream, sigh*

1/11/05

okay, okay, I'm late. o.@ too bad, I've had exams to study for, which are coming up next week and I need all the study I can get... not to mention my portfolio review next month, which I need to make a few more pieces for... *dies* well anyway, page 18 needs only 5 more frames shaded currently, so if I find time to work on it today, I'll probably have it up by tomorrow, since I'll have to scan it and such tonight (if it gets done) and then do all the computer work on it tomorrow. I might take tonight as a homework night and just catch up on everything, there's so much... o.O;;; but after this, I'll be going on the comic again in full force. ^^

I'm going to try and start producing these pages faster with my goal set at once a week. that's only possible when I don't have homework, i.e. over this last break, when I very nearly finished this page in just a week. but I'll try harder. I really wanna see this thing go somewhere...

1/6/05

alright, I've scanned the storyboard and my mostly-sketched final version.

1/6/05

first update of my graduating year. *smile*

I have page 18 about 80% sketched. this is ahead of schedule, actually. I'm going to try and get it done by Monday, which will have been 8 days from when my last page was finished. I would have some scans for this new page, but my computer has been locked in a cabinet for the last three days or so. o.o;;;; I've also been working on my portfolio pieces... regardless, page 18 will be up soon. wait until then! *smile*

in other news, DAFT starts tomorrow at 7pm. this is the animation workshop I've been selected to participate in (and pay $300 for). I'm very excited about it... I'll be able to meet people that are like me! *grinneth* it's a rare species you know... the art type... and even more rare, the anime/japan/manga/comic book/gamer/artist/animation type. o.o;; I hope there's a cute one just for me. ^____________^

12/27/04

this feels weird, updating 120 miles from home. o.o;;

anyway, about the comic... page 17's storyboard has been finished, as has the sketches on the actual page. shouldn't be too long now... also, yes... I am actually working on a decent background... when I'm finished with these next few pages, I will work exclusively on the actual site itself. but really, would you rather see more pages or a better background? o.o;;; I'd rather just do the pages, but people are complainers no matter what I do, so I'll be working on both. *stare* what I do for people... *sigh* anyway, what's here is here. so pu.

I'll be back home on the 29th, so wait for comic updates then. *smile*

12/19/04

wooo! done with page 16! ...finally. o.o;; also, if you'll notice... I've made this page 800 pixels wide instead of 700... I'll update the others accordingly. I've not had time to update the other sections of the site currently, but really, I've been working on alot lately... including (color!) profile drawings for many of the characters and even some group pictures... *smile* it'll be a spectacle when done! o.o;;; yuh...

Also, I'd like to congradulate myself for two major things: I've been accepted into the DAFT animation workshop (one of 24 applicants in the state of Michigan) and I've also been accepted into Grand Valley State University. *smile* I'm very happy at these... you don't even know. really. you don't. o.o;;;; I've worked on so many things... they've paid off very well... I can't wait for these to start. ^______________^

12/17/04

o.o;;;;;;;;;;; you know, I just revived this site. I killed it for about 5 minutes there... freaking out... but I've made it live again. *shaking from the experience* mou... anyway... I'm almost done outlining the new page... sorry for not updating the In Progress section with it, but really... does anyone care? I can't tell. no one gives me feedback. I guess this is all just for me to look at. oh well.

Also, this isn't the final form of the revamp. as you can tell, I haven't gone through and updated all the other sections yet, and I'm going to make a new background and a new banner even... this'll look good, I swear it will... I swear it.